I swear, the last time I looked at the clock it was 9:50.
Anyway, I've been in the mood for blogging.
So.
Recently, I've been thinking about life SO much that I now I feel like I've gone overboard with it. It even seems like I've reached a point where you just can't think about it any further.
Right now, all I understand is this.
My mom is not happy. My dad does not care. My sister is following along. I'm supposed to practice hella piano. I'm supposed to get hella good grades. I'm supposed to (or I should have) practiced more out of the SAT II Chinese test prep so that I wouldn't have gotten the score I got. We are selling our house. I am wasting too much time online. All I have is time right now. Money does not exist in our vocabulary bank. Not until we're older and we become parents and get an official job.
So now...time. I swear I've had at least 6 different lessons at chinese school about "time."
It's all about "shi jian jiu shi sheng ming," which means time is life.
You can think about that yourselves. Now onto the things that I SHOULD be doing:
I should be practicing piano. I should be listening. I should be doing my homework. I should be concentrating. I should be caressing the time I have left in my youth. I should be sleeping early for school tomorrow. I should be writing this some other time. I should be getting better grades. I should be studying harder so I could get into a "good" college.
( To make this clear, according to my asian mom, a "good" college isn't a UC. It's not any regular, fine college. It has to be an ivy league of some sort. Or at least make it on the list for the top ten universities in the nation. )
Anyway, I shouldn't be going to parties, dances, football games, etc. I shouldn't be so selfish. I shouldn't be so rude.
I feel like I'm trying to help my mom relive her own life, because she didn't have the same opportunities as we do now.
I don't even know if there is such thing as the Truth anymore.
