Torrent of Rain

I woke up this morning at 4:30am, finding myself drowned in a pool of hot tears. Why it happened, I don't know. But I can still remember the main part of the nightmare that had led me to tears. It was a story when my parents loved my younger sister much more than me, not caring nor believing in anything I did. So I was a rejected girl with a broken smile who had ran away one day to some place I don't clearly remember..but I still recall a scene of myself in a deserted city, sitting on the ground crying for help.
But when I was with my sister, she treated me as if I were her pet, ordering me around and blaming me for everything she had done wrong to our parents. I remember how I tried to tell my parents for forgiveness for not being the "perfect daughter" by writing "Why do you love her more?" on a blank sheet of paper...she had caught what I was trying to do, trying to get my parents to love me back, but she only wrote "She's just jealous" back on the paper. That's all I remember...the next thing I know I'm lying in pitch black awake in my bed, feeling cold sweat all over me. I glanced at the clock and it said 4:30.
I decided not to go back to bed, so I kinda lied there for another half an hour, since I had to get up at 5am for water polo practice anyway.