Hey guys
I think I’m going to take a break from blogging for a while. I’ll be back. It’s just going to take some time.
I’m so worried about you…
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I think I’m going to take a break from blogging for a while. I’ll be back. It’s just going to take some time.
I’m so worried about you…
Today: unproductive
pity. knowing what to do, and not being able to do it. making friends worry, for nothing. easily swayed. emotionally sensitive, too sensitive. so far away. looking too far ahead and not seeing the near future.
Just pieces of dream I had last night.
[Written yesterday. My internet went kaput seconds before I clicked ‘post’.]
I don’t know. I just found myself logging into MT. I feel like I should post more often.
Mood: happy
Today: hahah IdnHlthSoc was hilarious; also CS!
I actually logged on with no idea of what I was going to post.
The art program’s been canceled both days so far this week, for unknown reasons. The first day I had a dentist appointment, so I wouldn’t have gone anyways, but Connie went all the way there and found out from security. The second time, we both got voice mail during school. We’ll see about the last day this week… [Edit: The art program was indeed…not cancelled. Today was a pretty good day, we got pretty deep into some of the gallery pieces. It was also really crowded. People showed up early for the exhibition opening party.]
Jazz Lab’s better lately. I have a song now, the only ballad we’re playing. I’m more than happy to play something slow and dynamic.
What else was I going to say? I remembered and then it flew out of my mind again.
Mood: 3/5 stars. better than my 2/5 at the beginning of the visual arts meeting.
Today: The visual arts meeting, I guess. The rest of my day was pretty crappy.
The art program is off to a slow start, but today was noticeably more productive, I would say. We went to the gallery downstairs to spend about 35 minutes contemplating and sketching one of the pieces, based on a sheet of questions.
Afterwards, we came back up to the studio to take a second pass at printmaking. mmph.
Chemistry is eating up my homework time -__- I’m all for passing finals, but we do NOT need 30 6-in-1 questions on the subject of counting atoms.
Feeling marginally more depressed than I did during winter break. On the other hand, I’ve come to the conclusion that the estate map doesn’t like me, and I play better with a change of scenery. Also I’ve been playing on low graphics this whole time ._.”
Most of the pianists in Jazz Lab don’t even have music yet. And Jamie’s making me take the piece with the piano improv solo because I’m the only other pianist who takes jazz piano lessons.
sigh.
-__-
Mood: mmph.
Today: a normal Saturday. Though my drawing teacher finally gave us the published books from the last exhibition. He gave us each four copies…
TIMOTHY, STOP READING THIS OR YOU WILL NEVER SEE YOUR COOKIE!!!
I should get him to secretly participate in the NetHunt 4 :O Though I guess I wouldn’t really be in it anyways. If I’m even in TMF that day, I’ll be one of the people playing Bang! from all corners of the classroom, over the heads of the struggling students.
So, about Friday. Connie and I BARTed all the way to SF, which took twice as long as it was supposed to because of the storm, and we get there to find out that the last day of orientation…was…canceled!!! It was also freezing, and I’d given up wearing close-toed shoes because my socks are like sponges and they get wet anyways as soon as I step out of the door.
Oh well. I bought Skittles while I was in there. The vending machine has such great prices.
The first two days of orientation were pretty decent, I guess. We did a couple icebreaker activities. The first one was a video interview, and the second day we did an activity where you take three skittles, and depending on the colors tell three things about yourself, and then a scavenger hunt.
Well. I’m definitely excited about this. It seems like a huge time commitment, and it is…but as Tansen pointed out, it’s actually just about the same as volleyball or track season. And, not counting my kumon, I definitely survived those.
I am also determined to make myself start getting more sleep. Hopefully, things in school will start to look up if I don’t snooze through half my classes. With luck, Jazz Lab will as well.
Mood: oddly thrilled
Today: second day of the art program orientation; I’ll let you know how it goes after tomorrow, the third day
My account is scheduled for deletion at 12:33 am, Monday morning.
I guess I just need to delete. I have needed to, for a very long time. Once winter break ends, I’m not going to have the time to watch my villages anymore. Aevenia’s being catapulted by two villages. I don’t want to be worrying about it while I should be paying attention to the meeting.
On top of that, I really do need to start getting some sleep.
Timothy was right. I shouldn’t be in this program if I’m not ready to spend all of my free time on it. Games should be the last things to get in my way, especially a waiting game like Travian. For months, I’ve been using homework time to hang around my computer, watching the clocks count down until I could attack again, or until I could start another stage of construction.
I’m probably making too big of a deal out of this. I have a weird habit of becoming attached to non-material things - in this case, my villages in Travian. I’m especially proud of Aevenia. Until I was catapulted, I’d overtaken by powerful neighbors in population. My capital-specific resource fields were nearly completely maxed out. My army was both large and well-upgraded.
I only regret that I didn’t delete sooner. Though I suppose I never would have thought it while my villages were in their height.
Well, goodbye, Aevenia. Goodbye, Travian. It was fun while it lasted :P
Three days from now, I’ll be free again.
…has been wonderful :]
Mood: nervous? a little sad
Today: hiked the hill I’ve lived next to for the past six years for the first time
January:
In the weeks following the NYLSC conference, my life continued to change. In January I was writing to my friends from the conference, and my views on the things around me were adjusting to my newly refined values. Our Jazz Band also performed in Downtown Berkeley. Now every time I walk past that restaurant, I pause, look through the window, and I see our band onstage once again.
February:
The first out of many times I watched the Samurai 7 series, and soon after plowed right into Kiddy Grade as well. February seemed relatively uneventful, outside of school. The iSearch was in full flow, and the materials for OneHorn .::. were coming together.
March:
I had my birthday party. Karli came, and Chris. Soon after I cut my hair and donated a foot and nine inches of braided hair to Locks of Love. I still haven’t received word that they got it.
April:
The iSearch was finished, and track season was in full swing. I never got into it as much as I did in 7th grade.
May:
::chuckle:: Beginning to freak out about the STAR tests? And then actually taking them. A rather busy month. We also took our physics field trip to Great America, where I rode out my first roller coaster. I had the most fun there than I’d had in months. Later on, I went on a week-long cruse to the Caribbean, stopping in Florida going and coming.
June:
The Spring Concert was our last concert with Mr. Slous. My favorite school year ended with Marine World and graduation. You’ll never see me in a dress and heels again, unless I decide to go to prom. Here, I said goodbye to two of my best friends; Julie, the first friend I made when I came to Albany Middle in sixth grade, and Katie, who was responsible for the crush-hand reflex I have whenever someone tries to tickle or grab my neck.
TIC began! Starting with the reunion, during which Lloyd hosted the NetHunt 3 and Fogeys beat Youngsters by 1 point.
July:
ATDP ended, and only a few more get-togethers stood between me and 9 months of real school. Here, we also had our farewell trip to Japantown for Katie.
August:
The first TIC trip to the Metreon :) We also took our family vacation to Switzerland and Vienna. School began…the start of 9 months of pining for summer and drifting away from friends.
September:
School started to downspiral very quickly after it began. I started through a long list of troubles in Jazz Lab. I started becoming increasingly obsessed. On a side note, Tansen and I watched the Get Backers series. Kudos for the pretty characters.
October:
Homecoming week was a fun experience. We have an amazing spirited and creative class of seniors.
November:
Theater Ensemble performed Antigone, of which all six nights were a success. ICE also did the first volunteer event of the school year, and the two TIC get-togethers were my highlights of the month. Timothy invited me to Steam, so I started to play CS.
December:
Connie and I were accepted into the art program, which begins tomorrow. As a result I quit Theater Ensemble. We had our first band concert, and the TIC Exploratorium party was the most carefree day of the holiday month.
During this past year, I missed my friends more than anything, and I loved TIC more than ever.