From what I remember about Freud from my AP Euro class, we like to block out memories that are painful, or that we don't always have access to our memories; But find the right trigger, and everything comes back to you, and by identifying it, you can fix it. Well, I dunno about fixing it, but I definitely have all the emotions and memories flooding back.

Its strange how things that don't seem to ever be related at all just tie in together. Friday night, during a guys fellowship, the topic of how to deal with issues that reoccur came up. And we had a big discussion about the fact that, dealing with a problem by blocking it out of our heads and only recalling it when we need to remember it really isn't dealing with the problem at all. Its only ignoring it and because of that, when it happens again, you can't really change the outcome, because you never tried to fix it in the first place.

Anyways, today, I realized that I never dealt with this one problem, and the one thing that would trigger all the memories and all the random emotions, would be the one thing I've avoided for the longest time. Just when I thought I was gonna be ok, everything goes back into chaos. This summer at ATDP is going to be interesting, especially when I'm not around.